Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Ode to the Pilgrim People




Ode to the Pilgrim People

Oh, Pilgrim people, so plump and brown,
When you make your appearance,
I know the holidays have come around
Squat and serene, somberly atop my shelf
I just want to salt and pepper a-frenzy,
Unable to help myself
Memories of the holidays past,
Always heralded by your ad
Come flooding back with abandon
Making me smile, tear and laugh

You go home with me on Thanksgiving,
And then again on Christmas day
Other than that, here at work you will stay
Oh, Pilgrim people, my dear Pilgrim folks
Your presence on my desk has long been a joke
But as you cavort merrily each day (at least in my mind)
You’re a small reminder of the Season
And I try to be kind

Monday, November 10, 2008

Completely Random Thoughts- part 2

1) Apparently, when I want to talk, it's not that important
2) Even if people whose opinions I value, either for its honesty or insight, like something, it doesn’t help if I’m in the middle of a hair crisis.
3) I’m not vain, I’m self-conscious, there’s a difference.
4) God made puppies irresistible.
5) Uniform pants…sigh, not every man can wear them with impunity.
6) From what I have observed lately, a guilty conscience can be a motherf*cker—glad I’m not afflicted.
7) Boy, I miss my digital camera.
8) My granddaughter has enough personality for 3 grown drag queens.
9) Body language…..hmmm, fact or fiction?
10) Passive/aggressive behavior is the coward’s way out.
11) I may be a packrat…
12) The Explorer needs a new fuel filter.
13) My laundry pile is faintly resembling an Indian burial mound—not quite a mountain, but much more involved than a hill.
14) I’m really not feeling the snowman orgy this year, but I’ll give it one last go.
15) Even if you don’t want to say ‘no’, if you don’t say ‘yes’, then in fact, you are saying ‘no’ by default. Not being brave enough to face the fall out is no excuse to be evasive. And, in fact, by not being forthcoming, you have indeed precipitated the event you were hoping to avoid. (lol…bet Leslie won’t ask me if Jim’s still here or not anytime soon)
16) Not looking forward to the pelvic exam…wonder if the Dr. will grope my boobs again, since he already did it last month. If he does, should I look at him askance?
17) My bedroom is disgusting.
18) Out of sight, out of mind only works if you have a crappy memory.
19) I need to see the ocean, or a mountain or the Ozarks in the fall—something indescribably beautiful and serene and soul-settling.
20) Hate is a horrible, sordid word; sadly, it is still the only word I’m working with sometimes.
21) Work has been slow today.
22) Blood is thicker than water…always. No matter the length of time or the depth of allegiance, there is no loyalty among strangers.
23) Andy Griffith is quality televison as is M*A*S*H.
24) He thought he had found a ‘hot tamale’ when what he really ended up with was a ‘pig in a blanket’…lol, found that on a website and it made me giggle.
25) PMS equals lots of food, bitchy attitude and the deep dark—good week to be me!
26) I can wear ivory, or cream, or ecru, but not white. Does that make me a fall or a winter?
27) Not terribly thirsty today.
28) I put my Pilgrim people (from the Publix commercial) on my desk last week. Color me in the holiday spirit.
29) I want a new vampire book.
30) According to the fashion guru (that would be my sister) women over 30 should not wear tube tops and mini skirts—I guess I need new clothes.
31) Slight headache behind my right eye and it is ouchie.
32) Someone told me today that I worry about what other people think too much—I don’t think I do, I just don’t live in a self-involved, egocentric bubble where I can afford to let #3 (the real Sharon) out to play. Sometimes it really sucks to be me, but that’s the price of living in a society with some rules.
33) On my computer stand: Pilgrim people, ladybug cake decoration, micrometer, staple puller, race car (McDonalds toy), calculator slash level slash tape measure slash pencil, shot glass from Hawaii filled with Sweet-n-Low, assorted business cards, pics of Lili, Grady and KK, note that says “bronze is by the inch”, a straight quilter’s pin, a daily reminder of patience and sacrifice, a shell with my name on it, 15 CD’s, post it notes, Eclipse gum, Pocket Ref (full of handy dandy formulas), and a sign that says “Sharon Rocks”

Friday, October 17, 2008

So here's the picture

Okay, here are the infamous tube top and party hair pictures....I don't want to hear ONE negative word, do you hear me, Laura Beth? I think I was pretty fetching, personally!










Sunday, October 12, 2008

Dieting- the X-rated version

DISCLAIMER: I am going to use very bad words in the following blog...read at your ownrisk!

I HATE fucking salad! I hate fucking chicken! I am so tired of shittin' assed chicken and salad I could puke! I'm going to start shitting feathers, I've eaten so much fucking chicken!!!!!!! I'm fucking TIRED of being on a diet. Why the hell am I trying to lose weight? Oh, I know all the bullshit about being healthy, loving yourself and all that crap but I want french fries...and a cookie...and ice cream...and a glass of sweet tea! Oh, oh, and I want a fried burrito and pretzels with sour cream...and another cookie!

***The cardiologist's diet: If it tastes good, spit it out. ~Author Unknown Aint that the fricking truth?

***One should eat to live, not live to eat. ~Cicero, I'm thinking if you aren't enjoying what you eat, living gets kind of crappy too, you know?

***In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips And that lying piece of shit said 3 pounds--only 3 pounds in 10 days....what's the freaking point?

***Reality check: you can never, ever, use weight loss to solve problems that are not related to your weight. At your goal weight or not, you still have to live with yourself and deal with your problems. You will still have the same husband, the same job, the same kids, and the same life. Losing weight is not a cure for life. ~Phillip C. McGraw Okay, so maybe I was trying to lose weight for the wrong reasons, but at least they were GOOD reasons (to me anyway), but now that I've been convinced to do it for me, my hearts just not in it anymore, you know?



***The one way to get thin is to re-establish a purpose in life. ~Cyril Connolly Evidently, my purpose sucks or I just haven't established it properly

***If hunger is not the problem, then eating is not the solution. ~Author Unknown I know, I know what the problem is, but I could beat it down with french fries, I just know I could!

***Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels. ~Author Unknown Sigh, I know this is true...my new size is a 12 down from an 18W, so it DOES make me happy...I still want a cookie

***Food is like sex: when you abstain, even the worst stuff begins to look good. ~Beth McCollister Yeh, nuff said

All this aside, I stick to my eat regimen, even with people ordering McDonalds and Dales BBQ and onion rings and clam chowder all around me...and I lift my little weights and I drink my water and I eat 3 times a day whether I want to or not....

...and I walk everyday even when I don't want to. I walk in rain, sun, haze, heat, wind, humidity, everything but pitch black downpours. When I'm being argumentative with myself (like I am above) and think I should lose more weight considering how much I walk, I have to stop and remember that its not just the physical aspects of walking that lure me, but that great quiet quality time with myself and my psyche which makes it sooo worth it. So I will continue to watch what I eat so that I can walk longer and faster and more often--that part I really do do for me.

Thoughts come clearly while one walks. ~Thomas Mann

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Happy again today

So I'm happy again today...it's crazy, I know. Why am I happy? I'm not sure, but good conversations, lots of laughs, and tons of the warm fuzzies probably had a lot to dowith it. Sometimes I know what a lucky girl I am. I feel loved and cherished and appreciated....that really rocks!
So here's to my manic period--may it last for more than a day!
Guess what? I've been married almost 22 years...yay, me, talk about giving it the old grad school try!
Oh, here's a pic of the straight hair and glasses. Being a child of the 80s, its hard to have straight hair. I feel naked without big hair and 2 pounds of Aqua Net, but folks seem to dig it and I don't have to look at me, so there you go.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Some days

Today is a day that I am happy. Occasionally I am deliriously happy for moments. I had a day like that today. Sometimes laughter will do that for me and I laughed quite a bit. Thank you for that, btw. :-)

Good hair day! Straight as a stick hair coupled with my glasses (which I don't like myself in), somehow I have apparently hit a good look for myself. Who knew? I don't rally like it but what are you going to do?

Enough about that...

Sunday, October 5, 2008

I Need to Remember...

I went scrapbooking yesterday and it was great. There was only a moment or 5 where it wasn't too much fun, but I put it behind me, decided I would deal with it later and move on. I got four pages done...yes, me. I was there about 9 hours altogether, so thats pretty good for me.





I have had to make a harsh decision that's going to sting like crazy for probably a very long time, but I have to do it. I've spent a very large part of my life thinking I needed to change, that I wasn't good enough or whatever, but I had worked through it for the most part...now I've allowed myself to start believing it again. And for what? Nothing positive, that's for sure. Nothing like being hit in the face with a wet salmon to get the point. Pray for me to have the strength to carry through on this, because it's like crack...it really is.
I'll remember what's important, keep it ahead of me like some kind of talisman and say, NO, that's enough....
So here's to the important things in my life

grandbabies, my children, my family, my few friends, and my health

I need to remember that life's only fun and games for the people without any conscience, that I am a responsible adult and enough is enough